Which one will it be?
For years I would let circumstances get in the way of achieving what I wanted in life. Excuses, excuses, excuses. I'm trying to eliminate the habit of saying "But...." right after I set plans to achieve my goals. It's such a terrible habit that has always held me back from achieving the things I want in life. I've used it as a way to back out of opportunities, of seeing my self worth and from actually growing in the blogging industry. I've always had that nagging voice in my head, but since I've recognized that I will always have a side of me that makes excuses, I've since then been able to take control and ignore the feelings of doubt. I practiced ignoring my fears and going for what I wanted without inhibitions and although sometimes I still struggle, I've made immense progress.
I know I've endlessly talked about my Eurotrip plans, but it's only because I'm so excited to finally see through an actual plan -- not just any plan, a dream of mine since I was very young. Not everyone can just drop everything and plan a month long Eurotrip (with their boyfriend at that) and not everyone has the funds for it either. 24 year old me would've been like, "I want to travel again, BUT I don't have money." and end it at that. But 25 year old me says, "I don't have money right now, but I'll earn and save for it." and that's what I did every single day. I had 10 months to work hard and earn that money, and you know what? I actually hit my goal even before the 10 months were up.
It's a huge deal for me because a huge chunk of my life was lived dealing with the "imposter syndrome" which hindered me a lot and to add to that, I grew up in a middle class family who sometimes had financial problems to the point of not knowing if we'd have enough money to buy groceries for next week -- but don't feel bad for me and my family, because we know how to survive and it actually taught us kids the value of money and hard work. I'm just saying, I grew up with the notion that money was hard to come by so it was to be spent on far more important things. Travel was a luxury my family couldn't afford, I mean there are 10 of us in the family, can you imagine how much it would cost to take us all abroad? Haha Thankfully, my parents want me to invest on myself before giving back to them (they're the best), after my Eurotrip my next goal is to actually be able to give back to them each month just to help lighten up the load at home. :-)
I guess all I'm saying is this: don't let your circumstances dictate how you'll live your life or how you'll achieve your goals. They say nothing worth having ever comes easy, and it speaks so much truth. If you work at what you want, the sweeter it is when you finally have it. <3